yoga lin is my long lost elder brother cos he has 1. strong jaws like me! 2. Floppy fringe that parts on the right!
yay! I look like a popstar (not that it is very flattering)
On a side note, it seems like I’m getting (even) more scrawny, and my calves are getting fat. Oh no.
Life has been good. I finally quit some CCA, Amazing Race looks on track, NBS is still a hellhole (but more fun this sem), and i love my friends.
yay.
All of us similarly want to be different.
siewmin said this during our iphone presentation on 250109. I think she said it subconciously.
oh well, so we’re the same after all
Happy things that happened this week.
0. Went to shop alone and bought 2 tops for 40 bucks! (: Met ky for starbucks and THAI FOOD! (finally. had a bad craving for thai food during the holidays!)
1. Was late for Econs lecture and made it look like my press conference
2. Monday dinner with the royal couple and my RED BEAN MILK ICE.
3. Tuesday night dinner with eytans (4progs, 2gls and outcast) at Can A.
4. Wednesday dinner at canteen 5. GIGANTIC ice kachang made my day. zy: 妈妈叫我往上挖。
5. I sold 2.6KG OF BAKKWA. woohoo.
6. Tutorial mates saying I’m nice. HAHA. yes! I’m a changed man this sem! (: I’ve been helping them add/drop, email tut mates, get notes, get textbooks, print notes, tour ntu. Basically, being a kaypoh and planning their lives for them. SEE! I’m 曹三好。
7. A certain friend is FINALLY SEEKING CAREER GUIDANCE. goodnes. -heaves a sigh of relief-
Irritating stuff (as always)
1. Gays adding me on fb. (erm. what’s new?)
2. Irritating tutorials mates thinking that I want to talk to them
3. I want to quit a certain club/CCA/activity
Stuff that I’m (still) confused about
1. A certain person that talked about my previous ambiguity with an individual
2. Sudden warmness of people around me
3. WHAT’S WRONG WITH MY PICTURES ON FB! sighs.
4. Postponed lunar outing. Well, we all get busy, don’t we?
5. my mum
So i guess things do balance out don’t they. First week back in school is rather fun, and it is amusing to see how people exclaim in the canteen when they meet (it’s only been ONE month dude). People are not as jaded yet, and everyone is still dressing up for LECTURES. Wait till the project deadlines near and exams loom.
Oh, and after one sem, my life is still occupied with Eytan. It’s quite scary when I see them more than I see my family.
I’m also reminding myself here that it’s the last sem for me to meet roslyn and yukki for lunch in NTU.
After so much procrastination, I finally got down to work and packed my notes.
Looking through them, I can’t help but regret that I didn’t take a few more pictures, and wrote a few more blog entries during the semester. Sighs.
Time to get a new camera that doesn’t piss me off so frequently.
It’s 2 hours before meeting the IT gang for the Malaysian Trip. Somehow, I can’t sleep and I’ve been tossing and turning on my bed for 2 hours before finally giving up. That explains why I’m blogging at such an unearthly hour, and also how blogging has fallen in priority.
I was talking to one of my closer tutorial mates. Well, let’s call him W for the sake of simplicity. He’s one of the guys that I wanted to know more since day one. Not in the gay kind of sense, but he looked like one that can be trusted, someone that sees beyond my jovial pretence. I crafted opportunities for myself and eventually, he ended up as my relatively close friend in University.
You can call this a peculiar way of making friends, but I’ve been doing this since JC, even through my different courses and units in the army, and even right up to university. And the weird thing is, I’ve never failed before. I hated huge “male cliques” (whatever you call them) that is always full of testosterone and fondling with each others ego (okay! I’m stereotyping!)
I craved for a friendship that is more personal and intellectual. That is why I embark on my “secret mission” when there’s a change in environment.
Dealing with girls, on the other hand, is another story.
Sometimes I just feel damn fucked up. I just can’t deal with numbers, and I chose to go to a business school just to avoid all these, yet I’m forced to deal with all these crazy interest rates, bonds, shares, stocks.
What’s worse. Everyone around me just seem to find it so easy. And it’s not like I’ve not been trying.
Exasperated.
Cos i dont want to end up at the wrong end of the bell curve.
Please oh please.
B+ is enough. I don’t want my GPA to suffer.
Sighs.
sometimes, i just can’t help but laugh at how superficial young girls can get.
if any one of you wants a girl, just get into any uni, scream
” I HAVE A CAR, and i’m willing to bring you ard!”
I’m sure a vagina will be available. Anytime.
i should really consider fucking asses instead.
I just hate how quickly i alternate between emotions
and letting my loose tongue affect the others as well
telling them the things I observe, the things I feel.
perhaps.
some things are better left unsaid.
truth.
will speak for itself eventually.
somehow. the story is unfolding like my favourite movie
and I feel like the other male lead.
I’m just damned relief that the presentation’s over, and everything went well. Found back my confidence.
Sometimes you can’t help but marvel at how affinity does wonders to your life. I conveniently changed my IT sem timing and got to know a fun bunch of people that are different from me but alike is most ways. People that can complement each others’ working styles, and produce results with great team dynamics.
thanks beemployed, for being my pillar of strength throughout these 2 months (: all the shagness, unglamness and long nights did pay back after all
danfong, phebe and fanny (maybe chiateck too?)
生命总是太多吵杂
太多的流言蜚语
让我们模糊了重点
其实
我们更需要的是
一种安宁。
一种沉默。
一种支持。
为何
不能选择
置之不理？
因为
我无法
违背良心。
我
并非你想象中那么
坚强。
